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It was a sunny Saturday.  I was out running errands, and thought "Hey, I might as well buy this test."  So, I took it home, went in the bathroom and took it.  I didn't look.  I just exited the bathroom and told juC that he was going to be the first one to see the test this time around.  I said it wasn't fair that I was always the first to know. But perhaps there was a large part of me that was scared to know the results.

About 10 minutes later he went in, and came back out and said "Yep."

I have always said that kids less than 2 years apart are too close together for my comfort.  But the truth is, I'd been fighting the feeling that it was time to have another one for months!  I fought it and fought it until I just couldn't deny it anymore.  But the truth also is that I am absolutely freaking out!

I'm doing my best not to focus on the freaking out aspect of my feelings (the reality), and trying to focus on the sweetness of a newborn baby.  There is nothing better than a newborn baby.  And I'm looking forward to having one around November 7.